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♥ 10:08 AM

long time no post. it's not that i never use com but i dun noe what to post about.
just went for a morning walk to church with sixuan.
it's her birthday today.
hope she have fun! :DDD
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY! aishiteru wa` iloveyou` woaini` sarang hae yo`

special song dedication to sixuan,
[copy and paste this url first! :D]
http://www.imeem.com/people/LLFSuJ/music/Hj6p4EXA/jin-tian-ni-yao-jia-gei-wo/

今天你要嫁给我

春暖的花开带走冬天的感伤
微风吹来浪漫的气息
每一首情歌忽然充满意义
我就在此刻突然见到你
春暖的花香带走冬天的饥寒
微风吹来意外的爱情
鸟儿的高歌拉近我们距离
我就在此刻突然爱上你
听我说
手牵手跟我一起走
创造幸福的生活
昨天已来不及
明天就会可惜
今天嫁给我好吗
*rap*
夏日的热情打动春天的懒散
阳光照耀美满的家庭
每一首情歌都会勾起回忆
想当年我是怎么认识你
冬天的忧伤结束秋天的孤单
微风吹来苦辣的思念
鸟儿的高歌唱着不要别离
此刻我多么想要拥抱你
听我说
手牵手跟我一起走
过着安定的生活
昨天已来不及
明天就会可惜
今天你要嫁给我
听我说
手牵手我们一起走
把你一生交给我
昨天不要回头
明天要到白首
今天你要嫁给我
听着礼堂的钟声
我们在上帝和亲友面前见证
这对男女现在就要结为夫妻
不要忘了这一切是多么的神圣
你愿意生死苦乐永远和她在一起
爱惜她尊重她
安慰她保护着她
两人同时建立起美满的家庭
你愿意这样做吗
Yes I do!
听我说
手牵手一路到尽头
把你一生交给我
昨天已是过去
明天更多回忆
今天你要嫁给我

i've been feeling so depressed easily nowadays when there's anything that concerns about church.
i wonder if they even noe that i exist. and i'm right there.
i really hate this kind of feeling. i just dunno how to speak.
i dunno how to communicate with them.
i just nid someone to talk to me first.
i'm just this kind of person. i just dunno how to talk to them first.
this personality of mine makes me so anti social and maybe despised by ppl.
i dun like bondings or shld i say, i hate bondings.
bondings make me even depressed. i've always thought bondings can bring me closer to the others.
but yet i think i'm even more invisible.
they said only those usual ppl went for bondings so abit no point.
but then in cell already felt so lonely, how am i going to have the courage to go for bondings?
i dun think anyone will noe how i felt.
i think they just think that i just dun like to socialise with other ppl and talk to other ppl first. and is that i dun want to talk first.(no offence. sorry!)
right, i do admit, i dun dare to talk to other ppl first. but NO ONE seems to be approachable.
everytime i hope i can try to talk to other ppl first and other ppl can talk to me.
even if they ask me a question, any stupid question, i will get so overjoyed cos i noe i'm visible in their eyes. but such things dun seem to happen.
i felt so out. an outsider. an invisible person. a ghost.
how i hope i can get out of such state. but it seems so impossible, so far away.
i hate it. I H-A-T-E IT.
i'm losing the war with MR. DEPRESSION and MR. LONELINESS.
no one's there for me. no one's with me to fight them. i'm all alone. i'm losing.
i nid help. i nid support.
i just nid someone..

ps. nobody(church ppl) will remember me even if i disappear. D: